special talk

I've noticed that I talk weird. I have a very special vocabulary full of words that are real words, but they don't sound like it at all. Sometimes I wonder how I'm supposed to be a speech pathologist if I can't say words correctly. For example button. I don't say it like you normal people do. Nope I have to make it difficult. I say it like this: bud-den. So I guess I should just spell it budden. And kitten. The same thing goes, it's more like kid-den in my language. They mean the same things, but they do not sound the same, at all. Some people give me funny looks like, "wow did that girl really just talk like a 2 year old?" Yes, I did. Its what I do. I can't help it. Oh another thing, Striped. Like, "Cute striped shirt." It looks the same when I type it, but when I say it striped comes out more like: stry-ped. I'm a dork, I know, I. Can't. Help. It.  Lately, I can't even say my sentences without stuttering. I need to slow down my thoughts I guess.
I have been trying to slow down my brain for some time now. It just doesn't work that way. I need to take a chill pill, but there's too much going on in my head. Too much good going on in my head. I have 6 weeks left of class until summer. Then 8 weeks, then Maui, then back to SJ to begin my sophomore year. I think that's why my speech comes out all funny. I get these thoughts in my head, these thoughts that I would much rather focus on and that's why my speech is funny. Maybe not, it's probably just out of habit, but I'm gonna pretend that that's why. I haven't taken a single class in my major yet, but I can tell you I've got a bad case of the special talk.