A Little Bit of Enlightenment

Today class, we're going to learn about desire. Desire; what we wish for, aspire for, yearn for, hunger for, long for. Versus what we need, what is a necessity. Lately, God has been showing me what the difference between these two very contrasting things are.

For example:

I want a pony, but do I need a pony? No, a car will do just fine.

But really, a really real example in my really real life is my desire for my family. I want to be closer to my family, they are such a big part of my life and being 400 miles away kind of sucks sometimes. But I've realized recently that being closer to my family is not something that I need right now. God knows that when home I'm comfortable,  and not constantly clinging to him, so that's why I'm here, in San Jose. To cling to God because that is what I need. God knows that to create myself in Him, I need to do it on my own because I am a very stubborn person. That is what is so awesome about God though, he knows you. And when you realize that He has been behind everything going on, every trial and error moment, every slump you're in and even every perfect moment, that's when you laugh. Because every worry and every problem has all been for a reason. That is what I am realizing right now. It's kind of really awesome. 
Something else I've realized, is when you and God are on the same page. Like when God shows you something that you need, and it just so happens to be the same thing that you want. It's no coincidence. It's that moment when something just feels right. It fits. I'm witnessing that right now in a friends life, and its awesome. Even in my life. I wanted so bad to move away and get out of my small beach town... what a coincidence, God needed me to get away from that beach town. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE that beach town, but it's my time to shine somewhere else.

God doesn't reveal all of his motives right away though. Thats the catch, I guess you could say. But really, why would He? That's cheating. That's why you have to go through all of the trials and errors and successes, all of the pain and all of the tears and smiles, because it shows you that He is behind it all. It is Him showing you what you need, and eventually why. 
This whole concept of want versus need has been really showing up alot in my life lately. And now looking through everything that happened last semester I'm realizing that it's God saying, "Hello I'm the one in control here Colbie!"

So that's my constant epiphany. I'm constantly realizing these little moments, constantly learning from them, and constantly smiling from them.